Have a smile; take a piece of my heart

It’s so hard, this long distance is killing me.

I don’t know what you smoke, or what countries you’ve been to. If you speak any other languages other than your own. I’d like to meet you. I don’t know if you drive. If you own the ground beneath you. I don’t know if you write letters or if you panic on the phone. I’d like to call you all the same. If you want too, I am game. I don’t if you can swim. If the sea is any draw to you. If you’re better in the morning or when the sun goes down. I’d like to call you. I don’t know if you can drive. If the thought ever occurred to you. If you eat what you’ve been given or if you push it around your plate. I’d like to cook for you all the same. I’d walk to you. I am game.

I don’t know you, but I’d like to.

With you is where I’d rather be, but we’re stuck where we are, and its so hard, so far, this long distance that’s killing me. I wish that you were here with me, but we’re stuck where we are, and its so hard, so far, this long distance is killing me.There’s only so many songs I can sing to pass the time…..

I have to constantly have to remind myself you’re worth the tears…

Cause when it rains it pours in this town, A little darkness closes in, and your not around, I hope some how that you can feel me, because the miles don’t mean anything. And I’ve been unable to push you away, I better be able, to understand life like a game we play. You’re not afraid of love. And I’ve been unable to get you away, to talk about the things I wish I could. Do you know your word, because every day I pray for your word. Cause when it rains it pours in this town, A little darkness closes in, and your not around, I hope some how that you can feel me, because the miles don’t mean anything.

Because you make me happier than anyone else ever has.

And I need you, And I miss you. ANd now I wonder, if I could fall, into the sky, do you think time, would pass me by, cause you know I’d walk a thousand miles, if I could just see you, tonight. Cause it’s always times like these that I think of you and I wonder if you ever think of me. Because everything is so wrong and I don’t belong living in your precious memories. Cause I need you, and I miss you. And Now I wonder, if I could fall into the sky, do you think time would pass me by. Cause you know I’d walk a thousand miles if I could just see you, tonight. Making my way down town, walking fast, faces pass and I’m homebound. Staring blankly ahead, making my way, making a way, through the crowd. And I still need you. And I still miss you. And now I wonder, if I could fall, into the sky, do you think time, would pass us by, cause you know I’d walk a thousand miles, if I could just see you.

If I could just see you… If I could just hold you.. tonight.

And because I’ve never missed someone like I miss you. I need you so badly. I miss you so much more than you will ever know.

The stars lean down to kiss you, and I lie awake and miss you. Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere, cause I’ll doze off safe and soundly, but I’ll miss your arms around me. I’ll send a post card off to you, dear, because I wish you were here. 

The spaces between my fingers are where your’s fit perfectly.

And staring at the stars is all I can do not to cry when I’m not with you. Not only because looking up keeps the tears back but because I remember it’s the only thing that connects you and I. 

This time, in this place, misused, mistakes. Too long. Too late. Who was I to make you wait. Just one chance, just one breath. Just in case there’s just one left. Cause you know, you know, you know. I love you, I loved you all along. And I miss you. Far away for far too long. I kept dreamin, you’ll be with and you’ll never go. Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore. On my knees, I’ll ask, last chance for one last dance. With you I withstand all hell to hold your hand. Give it all, give for us. I’ll give anything, but I won’t give up. Because you know, you know, you know. I love you. I loved you all along. And I miss you. Been far away , for too long.

So, You need to come back. I haven’t gotten to hear your voice in two weeks now. It’s driving me so crazy. Please, I need you. I pray every night for you to come back. 

I can be tough, I can be strong, but with you, it’s not like that at all. There’s a girl. that gives a shit, behind this wall, you just walked through it. And I remember all those crazy things. You left them running through my head. You’re always, you’re everywhere. But right now I wish you were here. Damn, Damn, Damn, what I’d do to have you here, here, here. I wish you were here. Damn, Damn, Damn, what I’d do to have your near, near, near. I wish you were here. I love the way you are, it’s who I am. DOn’t have to try hard. We always say. Say it like it is. And the truth is that I really miss all those crazy things you said. You left the running through my head, you’re always there, you’re everywhere. But right now, I wish you were here.

Because you bring out the vulnerable side of me… the side I block from everyone. You stepped through my walls without any warning.

It’s been awhile, since I could hold my head up high, and it’s been awhile since I first saw you. It’s been a while since I could stand on my own two feet again, and it’s been awhile since I could call you. And everything I can remember, is fucked up as it all may seem. The consequences that I rendered, I stretched myself beyond my means. And it’s been while, since I could say that I wasn’t addicted and its been awhile since I could say I love myself as well. And its been awhile since I’ve gone and fucked things up like I always do. And its been awhile but all that shit seems to disappear when I’m with you. And everything I can’t remember is fucked up as it all may seem.

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