ignore this.

Jeez, Marina. Didn’t you know that when

he wants to hang out with you,
he smiles all the time around you,
he tells you everything,
he says he likes you
he cuddles with you
he says he’d wipe away your tears
and he has sex with you, doesn’t “ffuck” you, “has sex” with you (there IS a difference),

it means he DOESN’T want to date you? Did you not know that about men? Seriously? It apparently just means that “in a few years” you “might” be able to date him.

Why did I even get involved? Oh. That’s right. because I’m a fucking idiot. I knew it was a bad idea to get a crush on someone. I knew it was a bad idea… especially with him. Why couldn’t I just wait it out? Wait out this fucking loneliness?

Because now I have school tomorrow, and I’m 100x closer to a panic attack then I was a few days ago. Now I’m trying so hard not to cry, and I’m going everything I can not to. But, it’s not really working. I don’t want to go back anymore. I don’t want to do it. I don’t have the strength.

Ugh, I’m such an idiot. Didn’t I know it was stupid to start liking someone?

I don’t want to do anything.

posted 9 years ago with 0 notes

#rants #fml