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Ahhh, what a horrible thing to do. You really wouldn’t want a guy like him. Just look. he’s telling another girl he likes her while dating someone. He isn’t worth your time, dude. But hey, that’s just my opinion.

Actually.. the other person isn’t a girl… Hah.. hah.. Yeah.. he swings both ways. But, no, he’s not going behind the guy’s back. They guy knows how he feels about me. He likes me, but he loves him.But, hey, it’s not the first guy I’ve fallen for who’s broken my heart… it’s just been two years since it’s happened… I just hate that I was holding on to this shred of hope that he’d be mine. That’d I’d be the one to put a smile on his face. He even calls me “his girl”. I just wish yesterday wouldn’t’ve happened so that I could still be in a shadow of ignorance.. it’s easier that way. Maybe not better- but easier. And I needed that. 
His boyfriend even gave me the offer that he’d back off and let me have the guy I like.. but I had to turn him down. What kind of person would I be if i were to have taken that offer? I love him, and I want him, but I want him to be happy more than anything.. and if being happy means being with someone else, then I have to live with that.. live with that and the unimaginable amount of tears right now- but I’ll be okay. I’m always okay. I’m really good at pretending. I have to be.

Sorry.. Idk. I just.. spilled. I’m sorry.  

posted 8 years ago with 1 note

#rants

1. more-souls-to-feast-upon said: I see. I been there. The heartbreaks eats you up and you really can’t do anything about it - you just gotta deal with it. Keep your head held high and say Fuck it and move on.
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